Dear Friends

I started this blog for many reasons. In the beginning, it was a way for me to be able to share a piece of our lives with our family and friends. As time went on, it became a form of communication for me. I have come to realize that maybe I was mistaken.


Let me just begin by expressing to all of you that my friends hold a special place in my heart. I am the type of person that loves with all of my heart. Jason has told me so many times that one of my faults is one of the things that he loves so much about me. I care so much about the people in my life; sometimes too much. Once I let you in, I don’t know how to let go.

I have never been one to talk on the phone much. Since we have moved to Louisiana my time on the phone has been less than ever. Please understand that just because I don’t pick up the phone on a weekly basis doesn’t mean that I don’t think about you or that I don’t miss you because I do. I am a very lucky girl. I literally have the greatest friends and the best family in the world. You all have expressed your love not only for me but for my family in so many ways and I want you to know that everything that you say and everything that you do means the world to me. I would not be where I am today without each and every one of you.

I am sorry if I have hurt any of you. I’m sorry if any of you feel that I did not provide my support to you. It has never been my intention to hurt anyone. That is the last thing I would ever want to do. You all mean so much to me and if you feel that I have not been there for you in any way please let me know. I will do whatever I can to fix it.

Moving here has taken its toll. I am still trying to find my place. I keep myself very busy with my kids, so busy that there are nights that I don’t go to bed until after midnight because I am working on things for the teachers. I am getting ready to go back to school to finish up my certification and to start working towards my Master’s Degree. These are the things that keep me going right now. I have never been good at reaching out to others. I don’t exactly broadcast my problems. I never have. The only person in my life that knows everything about me is not here now. I guess you can understand now why he is my rock.

I am learning. This deployment has already taught me a few things. I can’t make any promises today because my emotions are just completely out of whack but I can tell you that I will try harder. You are all worth it to me and to my family. So I will try harder.