{Disney Dreamer}

I feel like I’ve been spreading a lot more negativity lately and I really don’t like how it makes me feel. My better side hasn’t been shining as brightly as I’d like it to shine. I have never been the type of person to look at the world through a glass that is half empty because it has always been half full in my eyes.



I’ve had this unsettling feeling and I thought that I had pin pointed the source but to be quite honest the feeling hasn’t left. I woke up this morning and I started asking myself some questions. I have so many goals yet somewhere deep inside I can’t seem to take the steps forward to get them accomplished. This is not who I am. I have always been a very goal oriented person. When I set my sights on something, I go after it with everything I have.

My Jay once told me that one of the things that makes me so unique and one of the things that sets me apart from anyone he has ever met, is the fact that once I set out to accomplish something, I give it 110% and then some. All of my effort, all of my energy, everything I have goes into the things I aspire to have in life. Before I finished my degree, he told me that he had never met anyone like me before. He had never met someone who was so driven and so determined. He actually told me that I would change the world some day  =] (I guess you can see why he literally makes my world a better place). Unfortunately, I am my worst critic. I don’t like to see myself fail.

I had to ask myself some questions. What exactly is wrong with me now? Why do I feel the way that I do? I’ve had a few setbacks but that has never stopped me before. So what it is? Is it fear, disappointment, apprehension, frustration, or maybe even defeat? I racked my brain this morning but nothing came to me. For the first time in a long time I feel like I have let myself slip. It dawned on me this morning that this must be the source of those feelings that have taken over my typically optimistic way of life.

I said an extra prayer at church this morning. I normally don’t request any special words for myself unless you count my weekly prayers since Jason left which have been for some extra patients to get me through each week =] However, this week I asked for a little guidance and a little extra support to help me find my way again.

I feel like I am one of the lucky ones. I say this because I know what I want to gain from my life. I know what I want to do, I know where I want to be, and I know what I need to do in order to make my dreams into a reality. To top it all off, I have my amazing family supporting me every step of the way.

I forced myself to take a good look in the mirror. I know I have it in me to keep moving forward. I know I am strong enough to get through whatever battle sits in front of me. I have come so far in my life. There have been so many hoops I have had to jump through. There were obstacles that tried to block my way. I never let anything get me down. Somehow, I managed to reach things in my life that I never thought possible.

I made a list of the things that I want to accomplish by the end of this year. I know that you all remember just how much I LOVE making those fancy lists =] As I was making my list, I remembered a few of my favorite quotes that I always kept with me as I was pulling those dreaded all nighters either studying for a test or piecing together one of my lesson plans.

Here are some of my favorite "Words of Wisdom" by the man who started all of his dreams with a mouse.

It’s kind of fun to do the impossible

All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.

If you can dream it, you can do it.

Get a good idea and stay with it. Do it, and work at it until it's done right.

When you believe in a thing, believe in it all the way, implicitly and unquestionable.


~ 2 more that I just really love ~

The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique.

There is more treasure in books than in all the pirate's loot on Treasure Island.